Yearning, Stretching, Growing

"Only as high as I can reach can I grow, Only as far as I seek can I go, Only as deep as I look can I see, Only as much as I dream can I be." -Karen Ravn

I am almost ashamed of the distance in time between posts, but alas I am here once again.

If you know me, you would know of the recent upheaval in my life in respect to my spirituality. I try desperately to keep from just spewing it all out here on this page but I am realizing more and more that it is a permanent piece of my history that weaves together with everything else to make up who I am, and I believe that this is the true purpose for our blogging, to reveal ourselves to one another, to expose deep truths that are otherwise difficult to present, by any other means and to such a wide audience. I believe it is one of our deepest longings to understand and be understood. We are ever in a state of relentless pursuit of purpose and meaning. Our goal is to find security in a fearful reality of existence that our hearts would become content and happiness would be sustained effortless for all time.

I have recently been exploring the lives of those people who have learned to recognize their fears and to face them head on in order to live a life of passion beyond the grooves previously tread by forgoers. Theirs is a life of mystery, a life that could not be lived as authentically by any who would mimic for their own satisfaction and has no trace of previous history to be followed, but comes directly from the hopes and dreams inspired by life’s experiences. Some of these individuals are long known hero’s of literature such as Henry David Thoreau and others are lesser known, but equally admired, people who for the most part share their lives on blog pages such as this. I am always moved to try and imitate these peoples lives, but I have learned that their dreams are just that “theirs” and that at best, I can only attempt to be stirred and inspired to chase my own dreams at any cost, realizing that the cost is as much a part of the gift that one earns for making such strides.

Becoming a critical thinker and exploring the innermost crevices of my being have taken center stage in my life. I am learning that by opening my mind to all possibilities I expand the world view that I hold by ever changing the beliefs that guide my actions. I feel more and more like a child in a kaleidoscope. The world is a fascinating place and the people who maintain it are equally as fascinating. I long to begin exploring as far as dreams permit and tasting all the flavors that the world has to offer. I am no longer as concerned with the empty treasures of materialism as I am with the concept of leaving a lasting imprint on the soils of souls by tying myself intimately with them in a compassionate and trustworthy manner. To be of service to humanity in whatever way becomes evident before me.

I will continue to stretch my new found wings until at long last I experience the rushing wind beneath them and the exhilaration of being at the mercy of the forces of a natural existence.